Ok so here it goes. So my brain relates rocking up and busting a nut to money, witch is not good. I cant possibly explain how hard it is sometimes to bust a nut even knowing the reason behind it my brain is always looking for the biggest possible reimbursement for its preformece. My nuts r fucmong like bull nuts that al.ost double in size in one shift. Ots not that i cant i just dont let myself somtimes concussionly somthing unconsciously bs the end result is the same and i know the issue im in no delusion as to whats going on. Be analyzitical doesnt help matters. If your struggling with this the onky time it gets easier for me os when im in the moment no thinking about bills hiw ima eat ect just be in the moment. Enjoying ones self. Females probably wont understand but u men that do this to survive surly do. Dont hold onto u will create a automatic routine your body will follow. Thas my advice this simple action is almost costing me everything. For the females we only get so many after the u can put a fork in us. And every one is money